forgotten | 잊고

Tuesday, January 17, 2012 at 1:42 AM

Many question being ask but yet no answer to be sold. To eat slow or to eat fast? To wait or the other way around? To converse in journey or to sit silently watching out the window? To feel sorry for being a lousy friend or to ignore the fact that no one understands it?

Sometimes, the words unspoken doesn't mean it doesn't being felt. Sometimes, the feeling that have been felt doesn't mean it should be spoken. Sometimes it's best to left things untold and feeling to keep aside. Feeling suffocated, being lost, no one to seek and no one to open up to.

I know being troublesome is really burden but back realizing the burden you bring, that feeling really kind of sucked. Imagine if you go places with another and meet someone familiar, back fire asking you "what are you doing here, seriously?". Sometimes you can't help it but to feel not belonged. How to feel belong? Force it? Scream it? The list goes on. What can one feel being in such position? How does it effect aftermath?

Words are poison. Some might not mind, some might and some might as well just pretend what's best for situation. Actions are damage make to regret for the rest of your life. A simple move could ruin the whole picture. Some words said couldn't be repeated but the meaning is just the same and it is the same for the act to be committed for all responsibility asserted.

Being belong is being comfortable, being reasonable and being appreciated. Perhaps the problem is in me. I could not feel belong in here. It's so easy. So the question is, do you feel comfortable being with people who are constantly so themselves which often to forget their root being in another shoes?

I'm not used to the jokes, I'm not being myself and I personally felt so much bad in me that causes so much stress arise that leads to much negative thoughts. To bring out the best in others but the worst in me; just assume like this: I, selfishly am thinking only for myself. Nothing more but myself.

Come back to solution, it's either you take it, work it and suffer silently or give it up and enjoy what you are breathing for all this while. Perhaps I couldn't decode it but in hope you won't mind it and I'm so sorry for all the cause, damage and burden made. If it isn't clear, I would also say my apologies due to the lack of experience in me.

Much and uncountable happened that concludes this, so I mind as well just leave for the better good. There are so much to say but there are certain limitation to people's thoughts. If you felt it then you should reason it as well. However, if you turn it around and misunderstood it, then sorry to say that you really sucked at this game. Just keep moving on, don't waste your time questioning it.

On the other hand, thank you for being there for me always (I guess you know who you are) although you know I sucked so badly. I couldn't have make it this far without you guys.















In miss the ones that's far and long lost (':

"Partially less in use to know the reasons..."
... just need a little space to breath, to clear out thoughts.

Labels: amusement, levelup, spyfive, whispers

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